No one’s so sure if the crime had a reason

[Me And The Moon – Something Corporate]

9 days and I forgot to write things!

The week past has been pretty routine – free time? Catch up with Mela. She has time before work? Go to Knox and hang out. On the Friday just after the previous post, I went to meet a lot of her friends when Mela held a BBQ at someone else’s house. In the end, Mela and her friends cooked while I sort of sat there and looked useless. On Wednesday just past we went to Tiffany’s house for a small group catch up, where Sonam attended, and it was amazing, because Sonam exists still! We literally did nothing at her house – just ate, lounged, played Monopoly Deal, then just sat there for a long time watching YouTube videos. It was very hot this week so we mostly tried to stay home. Yesterday, I took Mela to meet Catherine, who was so cool she was gonna get her Ps next week. I am very jealous.

Today I guilted Mela into coming into the city after her work to have dinner with me after my deathly 4.5 hours of dining shift. We had Red Silks, of course, and then sat in Fed Square while it rained all around us. We huddled under the one umbrella and kissed. I think it counts as kissing in the rain!

My feet are about to drop off.

Next week I have a 9am shift on a Sunday, meaning I need to take the first train of the day and be there half an hour early…or be late. Still, it was that shift or an 8-midnight shift the night before, and I wouldn’t even be able to get home!

Things with her are going so smoothly that neither of us can believe that it’s going to be 3 months on Monday. Has time flown so fast? At the same time, I find that day by day I am useless without her – when she’s at work, I carry conversations with myself (or the teddy bear that represents her) to keep company, because I am now so used to having her around. I think if we really count the minutes, we more or less spend every waking moment in contact with each other – and when we’re not I think it’s safe to say we both are thinking about each other. My phone’s gallery is simply filled with photos of her and/or the teddy bear. I suppose you all can say that I am a very dependent and clingy girlfriend, and yes, I am, but I feel so normal when I call her up first thing in the morning, and her response is so warm that there isn’t a moment when I get the feeling that she may not want to talk to me. Well, there are some moments, but I try to ignore them…I’m sure she doesn’t go AWOL on purpose – and I’m sure there are times when she’s wondering where I am when I totally forgot to text her or something.

On the friends front: I haven’t had the chance to really hang or talk to Clare in ages, and I miss her a lot. I think after this coming week which is a bit packed, I will try to hang out with her, maybe a whole day! Wow large dose of Clare. Josh and Anna I’ve also had little chance to really see, they’re both very busy people, and when they are free I am not, which is sad. Jen and Annie I see regularly, but since the holidays have started and they’re both working more, not so much. Brendan and Cindy I haven’t really seen since the last Chadstone shopping trip, and although Brendan and I text back and forth a bit, it’s not really connecting kind of conversation. And, Dani received the birthday parcel that Mela and I sent, and hopefully she’ll be back in Melbourne soon!

There are a lot of other people who I have not seen in a long time due to Mela – I guess I’ll have to take the on the title of “one of those“.

Alex.

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Lazy Dayze

Yesterday was a long day…of NOTHING! Well, not really nothing…I did go to Mela’s house to give her some new episodes of shows and a bunch of movies she wanted, and we watched some of those episodes together. Then in the afternoon we went into the city to meet her cousin’s friends (who she in turn befriended) who have heard about me but haven’t met me.

It was quite nice – Mela really wanted to try the risotto I harped on about at Giraffe, so for the second time (did I write about shopping with Jen and Annie on Tuesday? I don’t think I did. It wasn’t THAT eventful, just a nice catchup with good friends) in as many days we went to Giraffe. Mela’s friends really liked the cafe, which I think helped them to like me a bit because it was all “wow good taste” and stuff.

We played Bullshit after eating – Mela barely managed to finish half of her risotto because she said it was too filling…which I guess it was but still – and I was winning until Mela took me down and gave me all the cards…and so knew what I had, therefore she knew when to call me out, causing me to lose more. On the other hand, I really didn’t want to call my girlfriend a liar, so I never called her – or anyone – out. We left in a hurry when we realized it was getting late.

And in fact, it was getting quite late, or at least it seemed that way to my parents. They had to give Mela a lift to the bus stop lest she wait alone for too long, and on the trip back told me it was very troubling for them to go to these lengths – as in, to go an extra 5 minutes out of their way in an area they knew well. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder how they even manage to call me selfish with a straight face.

Today I spent a good half a day sleeping, then waking up and watching the weekly shows, then marathoning Charmed while snacking and drinking beer and eating ice cream and hugging Mela bear. It as unproductive and I feel like I should accomplish something, but at the same time it’s nice knowing nothing is due and I’m not doing anything wrong.

I missed her while she was at work, though, which confirms the whole attachment/abandonment issue. We also confirmed today that I have a control-problem when I checked up her bus times for her. I suppose there’s something for everyone to work on everyday, and seeing as my day was uber unproductive, at least it’s nice to have personality shortcomings to work on.

Speaking of projects…I’m not saying that my Writing Project is coming to an end prematurely, but I haven’t really been working on it – nor getting the inspiration to do so – for a while, so it’s on a bit of an extended hiatus until I get my mojo back.

Alex.

The Truth Is Hiding In Your Eyes

[Decode – Paramore]

I think I’m wasted enough days sitting around doing nothing. I think I should definitely get some point back in my life! I never wake up early enough anymore, and it’s only partly because I stay up later. I think I should probably get the ‘in bed by midnight’ and ‘up by 10 by the latest’ thing going again. Except I want to get into the World Cup this time around – I have the time – so maybe…that won’t happen.

Either way, I need a reason to get up! I think, I will try to get a new chapter out by the time Jac finishes her last exam, and another one out by my birthday (that’s really pushing it haha).

Today, I updated my iPod again, and now I own every Glee song. Wee!

I think I should listen to Dani again, and get more new music from her, because I always trust her judgment.

There isn’t much I want to rant about these days. Is it because I’m not being stimulated enough – or I am being stimulated the same amount but I really don’t care about what is around me anymore? I think I want to care about what is around me – even if it isn’t politically.

I’m trying to be a good friend and not constantly calling or bugging someone trying to study. Although I really want to.

Alex.

Summer Project

Bee and Carmaine and Eunice all have summer projects. Bee wants to get fitter, and there was something else frilly but I forgot (sorry!) and Carmaine wanted to make a dress out of another old dress, which she did, and it looks great! And there was something else, I think, that Carmaine wanted to do, but it was a frilly idea too so I blocked it out. Bee and Carmaine both want to do photoshoots that they’re directing. Eunice wants to make a clutch bag out of playing cards, and a summer dress. (My god, I have frilly friends.)

What is my summer project?

Apart from a personal secret one that I already failed [glares at Bee, the catalys of my failure] I have another one which is to CONTINUE WRITING! I haven’t really sat down and wrote something in a long time (fiction) because I haven’t had the time or the insipiration. Well I have now, and Sonam and Bee and Vania knows about it.

So I put to you, reader (AND NOW YOU HAVE TO COMMENT!), would you like me to make a new page, next to the tabs that say “Home” and “The 411”, called “Summer Project”, and every now and then, depending on the speed at which I write, I upload/update a chapter of my current piece?

Note, I am an indecisive writer, and frequently goes and to edit and change plots, dialogues, etc. And since this idea is in its infant stage, I may re-upload the same chapter twice, if it contains major and important changes.

So, what do you think? Would you like that? Vania said I should, already. But I want some other general feedback as well (not that I don’t appreciate you, Vania, but…)

De Fluffe, Out.