I Promise You, Kid

[Haven’t Met You Yet – Michael Buble]

So I noticed that I hadn’t blogged in about a week, and I realized I would therefore fail my 15 a month target if I didn’t write something soon.

I’ve sort of just been sitting at home doing nothing, which is probably what I’m writing about today. I like to analyze my own actions after a while.

A few of my friends feel that they’re wasting their lives in front of the computer screen – social networking just doesn’t hold the thrill anymore. They want to go out and get a job and start working towards the dream life they have.

I also want to work towards that dream life but I’m still sort of in the mindset of a kid – I have plenty of time to do it later, when I’m older. Except I am older.

And I think I have been hiding/held back by the fact that my parents aren’t giving me much freedom, and I couldn’t get a job. But I don’t know what the ratio of each is. I mean I do have friends that tell me to “just do it”, as in just move out and be independent. However it’s kind of hard to do it when I don’t have any means to support myself. Right now, my bank account is somewhere at 15 dollars.

I think that’s why I’m really looking forward to going to New York for exchange (have I mentioned this?). If I get the exchange, I will be going to my dream city for half a year learning about stuff I love, all the while being independent – at the same time financially I should still be supported somewhat (even though I still really need to get a job). So it’s sort of an incentive and a trial (dream city and independence) without the shameful failure.

However, I don’t think I’ll be able to disengage myself from the internet. I don’t think it’s a matter of my wasting my time on it, or being addicted to it (though in both cases it’s true), but rather the internet is such a huge part of what I find interesting about the media, that disengaging myself from it would be cheating myself of happiness.

There, I justified my addiction. Bring on the interventions!

Anyway, I’ve sort of been a recluse for the last few days, and after not getting another job (even though I do have a work experience somewhere! It doesn’t earn me money – if anything it takes up money – so I don’t know how I will do), my ego has taken a hit. But I have organized to go out a little bit in the next few days to bring my mood back up again.

Alex.

Hold You Through Forever

[Skyway Avenue – We The Kings]

Day 8 – Your Favorite Internet Friend

Dear Sneaks,

I know we’ve actually met (once) in real life, but I think it would be so unfair if I didn’t say you’re my favorite online friend. It was because of this blog that I met you, and man I was so lucky you commented. You’re, in the nicest way possible, a complete nerd. You find the nerdiest and geekiest things awesome. The great part is, nerdy is the new sexy, and hellsyeah you’re one sexy chick! The stuff you like, whenever I bother to actually go check it out myself, is always really awesome and out there – which is so refreshing compared to the crap we are now exposed to.

You’re also incredibly supportive. You always have some encourage for me, and never fail to give me constructive criticism when I need it.

I honestly don’t have any worries about you and your exams, and your future. You’re too conscientious a person to ever screw up your work. But what I do worry about is that your shyness will get in the way of people getting to see your awesomeness, because they assume you’re just another quiet geeky Asian. You’re not (well you are, but that’s not all).

Take care of yourself!

Alex.

I Wear This Cap Unwillingly

Oh ffs I’m capped again. I do not know why! Maybe it’s Skype.

Oh dude I really can’t do with the cappage again! Especially now with all my essays due. Not happy.

To read about what I did today, go to day 11 of my 365.

I know it is ratty of me to do that but typing it all out again seems pointless and what I did today felt a bit trivial for this blog.

I will mention though that I spent some awesome time with Catherine and Jackie today!

Wish me luck writing and researching with a capped net!

Alex.

Can’t Return To Who I Was Before

[Breathe – Anberlin]

I’m writing this from my iTouch because this stupid virus called IS2010 managed to completely fuck up my computer. I can’t even log on anymore.

If you want to comment with a suggestion that would be really appreciated but overall I’ve had heaps of help from Mani and Whitty and we’re calling a family friend over on Friday.

Friday!! I’m barely managing.

Haha well, while true I’m also grateful that I have another computer on which I can watch the movies on my portable HD. I’m grateful that my iTouch and phone both have Internet connections to keep me sane. Now fingers crossed that I don’t lose all my pictures, music and files again.

Speaking of crossed fingers, uni offers came out yesterday! Ling story short, I got my media and communication at Melbourne uni after all. Quite relieved! Now waiting to get my computer back (computer with Internet) so I can do all my online enrolling stuff, or else expect me knocking on a few friends’ doors for their computer.

So now I’m watching a whole bunch of tv. Did you know that Full House (not the Korean one) is on either GO! or channel Seven Two at six thirty? It’s such a cute cliche show.

So to the people on my Tumblr; sorry I will be MIA for a while. Thank God Tumblarity is gone!

Take care, and I hope everyone is happy with their offers.

Alex

You Said Move On, Where Do I Go?

[Thinking Of You – Katy Perry]

Well, since I (somehow) capped myself, this will be my last post until I uncap (except for Christmas). I put some effort into making this post interesting, okay?

This is mostly for Katherine’s benefit.

One day when we were on MSN I complained to her, “Katherine, you never stalk me anymore. When we first met/got back in touch, you’d stalk me three times a day, at the least. Sometimes you’d drop by and stalk me unexpectedly, just to let me know you still feel that stalk-spark. But now you only stalk when I ask you, and even then I don’t feel like your heart is in the stalking. It’s like you lack the passion you once had for stalking me.”

Katherine replied, “But honey (she didn’t say honey, but for the purpose of this very thinly veiled double entendre she did) I don’t need to stalk you to let you know I still love you. Can’t you just know by me simply giving you a quick hi on MSN?”

“It’s not the same!” I cried, “You used to stalk me so passionately that you knew everything about me. I would look into your eyes and ask you the name of my 3rd grade teacher and you’d be able to reciprocate. But now, now you barely remember my password!”

“Dammit woman! (Again, she didn’t say woman. Why did I make her out to be the guy in this…anyway) Don’t you get I’m trying? I come home everyday exhausted from a long hard day of legitimate information gathering, and I just want to put my feet up, sit back and watch some Bones (oh yes, I noticed what I did there). I love you, baby, but I just need some time to myself. I can’t stalk you all the time.”

“Time to yourself? Oh don’t be coy with me, I know EXACTLY what you get up to!”

“What…what are you talking about sweetie? (She doesn’t call me sweetie either. She’s not a womanizer. She could be if she tried…and had a dick. The point is…)”

“I know about those tumblrs and deviantarts! I know that you spend your ‘free time’ stalking all those pretty girls on those sites instead of me! Do you think I haven’t noticed? What, am I not arty enough for you? I can be arty! I can be anything you want! Here I’ll string some apples onto trees, sit in an awkward yet erotically suggestive pose, and have you take pictures. Do you want that? I can do that! What can I do to make you want to stalk me again?!”

“You don’t understand, baby. It’s not the same.”

“I get it. No, I understand. I’ll just leave. Maybe I’ll delete everything of mine so you won’t ever get to stalk me again.”

“No, baby don’t be like that. Come back. Hey? Baby? Alex? Alex?!

…AAAAAAAALEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEX!!!!!!!!!!”

(I HAD to put a Streetcar reference you in there, you understand.)

The intensely capitalized utterance appeared on my screen just as I moved my mouse cursor towards the close button. Hesitating, I tapped out, “Oh I do love you Stan-I mean, Katherine. I do. But how can I trust you again?”

“I’ll show you,” came the reply. I waited anxiously, not knowing what form of stalking Katherine will bestow upon me. Suddenly a red icon appeared on my Facebook page, and I saw that Katherine had “posted something on my wall”. My heart skipped a beat, half in excitement, half in anticipatory terror. What did she post?

“Hey sup how r u? I see u were playing bejeweled! Kwlzz~~”

And my world became complete once again.

Alex.

Disclaimer: Katherine never ever talks like that. In fact, I am willing to bet a very small amount of money that when she reads what I wrote, she will actually run away crying. She doesn’t type like a tool.

What she does do is stalk people on deviantart and tumblr. That part was true, and was written for her benefit.

I do not own Streetcar Named Desire, Tumblr, DeviantArt, Facebook or Bones in any way. Aha, now you can’t sue me.

And I’m very sorry, Katherine, for that thing about the dick…. ._.

What I’ve Done

So let mercy come
And wash away…
What I’ve done…

I’ve gone and imported this blog onto my notes on Facebook. So the traffic should get a bit busier, I hope. I made it so that you can read my post, but to comment you’d have to come here. Ingenius, no?

By the way, that was “What I’ve Done” by Linkin Park.

In other news, we got our new internet installed finally, 1 and a half months late. We’re now with Telstra Bigpond. It comes with a wireless thing so when we get a new computer and when I get a laptop I can totally just use the internet from my room. How awesome!

And, Dom had gone get himself tested for swine flu. Results in a few days. Hope he doesn’t have it, the poor bugger.

That’s all for now.

Alex.

P.S. Catherine I really really do love you for what you wrote.

For You In Full Blossom

A.k.a. Hanazakari no Kimitachi e. A.K.A. Hana Kimi.

I watched it 2 years ago, when it came out. Twice. But just this weekend I’d gotten legit copies of it so I’ve been watching it again.

Right, so the reason I haven’t blogged in such a long time is because of this:

Firstly, my net capped. As per usual when my net caps, I wait until the new month to blog, because WordPress takes a while to load on a capped net. However, just a few days ago my computer decided to die on me. Apparently viruses finally got the better of it. We’d taken it to a family friend’s so he can reformat it (and hopefully back up all my files somewhere) but yeah it’s pretty sad not having the computer there. Walking into the study and seeing the empty space where the CPU used to be, it’s like walking into a room where someone had just moved out forever. Well it’s coming back but I still miss it.

As a result, I can’t go online at all, except at school, which is where I am right now, writing a delayed blog post. I can’t go on Facebook, and as Emily had noted I have been absent on MSN for a long time (which is how she figured something was wrong with my computer). I shudder at how many notifications I’d have to sort through when I get back. OR, alternatively and true to FML, I’d go back and realize I don’t have a single notification from a friend asking for my whereabouts. I’m reading a lot more now (what else can I do?) so the other day, neglecting to read my school set texts of In the Lake of the Woods and Hard Times, or not even finish my Hitchhiker’s Guide series, I borrowed a teen novel called Unwind, as well as Frankenstein and The Green Mile by Steven King. No idea if I will finish any of those, considering I should get my computer back soon.

So so, what has been happening in my life outside of my technological setback?

On Tuesday, school started late because of the parent-teacher interview the evening prior. BRuCE went to school early to make breakfast in the Common Room (Eunice had found a recipe for microwave omelette) only to find others with similar ideas. Except Sanj. Sanj went to school early because she thought she was being on time.

We heated up soup, and then Eunice made the omelette, which was really nice – totally worth making the Common Room smell like onions – and then, since the Yr 9s were having a year level breakfast, all their left over food came to us. So we have 7 2L bottles of milk and 3 large tins of Milo at our disposal. We even went as far as THANKING the Yr 9s for their contribution.

On Wednesday I had my hair cut. It’s not that big a deal but I have to style it now. It’s the 2nd day with the haircut but I’m still receiving a few compliments. Yay! Again, totally worth waking up 10 minutes early just to do my hair.

Tomorrow I start my English tutoring at Tye for Hard Times, which is a problem seeing as I haven’t really READ THE BOOK! I wonder if that’ll matter. Oh wel the shit will come when it comes.

My cousin’s birthday was last week, I don’t know if I mentioned. I called her up over the weekend and we had a talk, and then started to exchange emails. It’s pretty nice to be in touch with my cousin again, I feel. Hopefully it’s the same for her. I should probably give her the link to this blog when I frequent my entries again.

Well, here comes May. Time seems to be playing tricks. For a period of time it seems like the week will never end, yet we’ve stepped into May, nearly halfway through. I am loving my time with my friends now more than ever, because I am often being told by last year’s Yr 12s that after graduation you hardly get to see your friends. I really really don’t want to be distanced from my best friends.

Ahhh too sentimental. I have to write this quickly because I may not get another chance to blog until after the weekend (hopefully computer will be back by my next entry).

Finally:

To be able to discern the re-twining of the netting in our safety net, I feel much more at ease. Four pairs of hands, and four hearts and minds are simply so much stronger and efficient.

Alex.

Quick Update

Well, I realize that I have not updated in a long long (and what seems like a record amount of) time. It is marked by how many white numbers there are in the calendar on my site.

The reason for that was predominantly because I didn’t have much to blog about, and then at some point my net capped and it became frustrating to try to blog.

So, I will quickly catch up on what’s been happening in the past week.

Firstly, on Thursday it was the Athletics. It was, actually, my final school-organized sporting event, ever. And, I didn’t go. There were a few reasons, one of which being my laziness and want to sleep in. Oreads won (as I was informed by Vania later that day).

I had the Chinese, English and Eng Lang SAC I was talking about a week ago. They all went alright, even though in Eng Lang the topic was not what we expected, in English I may have gone off topic, and the Chinese listening SAC was the same as the previous year’s practise exam.

Net uncaps today but I haven’t been home…(well I have, but this morning doesn’t count) I will properly write up some notes of interest tonight, most likely. Dom has started a blog (well I don’t know, Dom, have you managed to set it up?) so I shall put that up on my blogroll for you to enjoy (provided he gives me permission to). I think there were a few errands I have to run on Facebook as well – mostly people buying my pets off me and stuff I haven’t replied to.

Madd- was diagnosed with Chronic Fatigue, apparently, and will be away for the rest of the term. So all our Eng Lang classes have now been turned into study session (er, frees). I hope she gets better soon, for her benefit as well as our’s.

Take care, and I’ll hope to see you tonight.

D.F.