I feel bad to gloat but I seriously KNEW something like this was gonna happen and now I want to KILL HIM for making it come true! What a dickhead.

I had a pretty good day today. I met a cool chick called Carmen in my Chinese class (newcomer) and she was quite nice and easy to get along with. I felt bad though, because I didn’t talk to Ev- nor Mi- much and I think they felt neglected (as much as Ev- tried to assure me otherwise.) but next week I will make it up to them.

No idea how but maybe my presence alone is enough. Oh how narcissistic of me.

How fitting, don’t you think? Down to the scale, too!

Not much to write about today. Just the gloat, the negligence (sounds like my Legal project, WHICH I STILL HAVEN’T STARTED!) and the book.

Oh, and I said this, but…

Eunice, Carmaine, Bee, it will almost tangibly hurts me to think about how amazing, stunning (lol not slutty) and BEAUTIFUL you three will look for the formal, and to realize I can’t see you in person. (Yes I know what a stupid thing to say, why don’t I just come?? No…) So you must promise to take a LOT of photographs. I will miss you that night. It will feel like I’ve left a good half of me somewhere else.

But, but but, Sonam, Vania, don’t get too mad, I will have fun with you guys too! Wow how awkward…

De Fluffe, Out.

P.S. Can you guess yet?

It occured to me…

Perhaps James Blunt’s “You’re Beautiful” was based on Romeo and Juliet. If uh, it has been proven somewhere already that this is the case then please ignore my ignorance but look at this:

“You’re Beautiful”

My life is brilliant.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I’m sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won’t lose no sleep on that,
‘Cause I’ve got a plan.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don’t think that I’ll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don’t know what to do,
‘Cause I’ll never be with you.

You’re beautiful. You’re beautiful.
You’re beautiful, it’s true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it’s time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Now, for those who are woefully not so familiar with the concepts of Romeo and Juliet…here is an overview.

But for those who can’t be bothered, basically Romeo sees Juliet at a party and falls in love with her immediately. But they can’t be together because they are from rival families, but despite all of that they still fall deeper in love. After a few unfortunate incidents, fakes deaths and banishments, Romeo kills himself after believing that Juliet was dead (she wasn’t). After Romeo dies, Juliet wakes up from her fake death, and sees her beloved Romeo dead. She then kills herself as well. So everyone dies.

Now, relate that to Blunt’s lyrics.


De Fluffe, Out.

Bouncin’ off the walls

THEY DID IT! THEY DID IT! THEY MADE UP! THEY ARE TOGETHER AGAIN! THEY’RE OKAY! It’s gonna take a bit more time but they’re together and they hugged and they talked and they smiled at each other and I don’t care if this sounds gay but the LOVE IS BACK!

Yes yes yes, Dani and D.P. made up! Remember how I said a while back that there was something up? Well fuck that! They’re talking again! Dani took the advice from her horoscope (thank you horoscope) and they talked and at lunchtime D.P. was walking next to me and in front of my eyes they hugged and I was so happy I was literally jumping and whooping and hindsight, it was odd that I was happier than them but I don’t give a fuck they’re together again and that’s all that I care about right now!!!

The moment when I see them hug again, I nearly cried. But the tear ducts were put on hold because my brain had to send messages to my feet to JUMP JUMP JUMP! But honestly, I had a jolt in my heart and I was close to crying for joy. What a wonderful moment. It was sunny, and the sun shone as they hugged as a silhouette, two beings joining as one (again, that sounded infinitely gay but fuck that) and I was just so happy.

Last period today Carmaine had a French SAC so Eunice and I sat at a picnic table while i strummed a few chords and we sang. Eunice was quite pretty lying on the bench basking in the sun. Bee and Sha- sat aside, having a conversation, and then at the end they joined us and we sang “Hero” by Enrique Iglesias (however) and it was a very very nice moment.

Carmaine too, was extremely amazing today. We bought ice-cream but mine melted a bit so I ran out of tissues to wipe with, and Carmaine, in a motherly fashion, handed me a spare. The only thing she could’ve done was wipe my face herself but I think that takes it a bit too far.

Is it pathetic that I’m sitting here now, barely an hour after saying goodbye to my beloveds, and already I miss them so much it hurts (overused cliche but try to imagine that in an almost-literal sense) and I can’t believe I have to spend hours not seeing them again.

Tomorrow I am going to a family friend’s so that means I can probably sleep in a tiny bit, and then have to do my Chinese, and then A LOT OF LEGAL! I think my Legal is due the coming week OR the week after that which honestly is not a lot of time at all. I have to seriously dedicate some hardcore time to it.

Okay that’s all for now. Julia on her blog (she’s on my blogroll) signs out with a nice quote every time. I don’t have nice quotes. I found some fun Ellen DeGeneres ones. Here’s one of my favorites:

“I ask people why they have deer heads on their walls. They always say because it’s such a beautiful animal. There you go. I think my mother is attractive, but I have photographs of her.” Ellen DeGeneres

Some people don’t get her humor, but I like it. It’s kind of ironic, satirical and sarcastic at the same time. Very much “take a good long look at yourself and see how stupid you are” esque.

De Fluffe, Out.

P.S. I love you two! I’M SO HAPPY YOU MADE UP! When I hugged both of you at the end of the day, it felt like a happy family. I was so tempted (or maybe i said it anyway) to say, “the child is happy that mommy and daddy made up.” (needless to say, D.P. is the dad. Jokes! But not really.)

P.P.S. Love you so much I could kiss you right now.

” I don’t blame you for being you
But you can’t blame me for hating it
So say, what are you waiting for?
Kiss her, kiss her
I set my clocks early ’cause I know I’m always late”

Fall Out Boy – A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More “Touch Me”

(The lyrics were quite funny at the time when I heard them)

2 irrelevant things…

I was in the shower (no no no no no just keep reading) and since my throat was hurting a bit I decided to think instead of sing. And hell, I seriously belt in the shower! I was halfway through my rendition of Ben Lee when we was on the ski trip last year, but Carmaine and Bee made me shut up. Okay, the point is, I was in the showering thinking about what I should write in my blog, since Vania said she won’t comment until I write another one tonight. And the following occurred to me:

I wasn’t this passionate about blogging (measured by the fact that usually, when I’m not singing in the shower, I’m thinking about TV or food or…”stuff”) a while ago, how come so into it now? Well, it was mainly because Dani started to blog frequently and I thought, I should too. After finding Vania’s and then having Carmaine start her blog, the “pressure” to keep posting just kept on mounting. I am a posting maniac now!

But that just all led me to the belief that I am a sheep, not a shepherd. I do things because other people do things. Okay, to clear the air, that doesn’t mean if everyone starts taking drugs and having unprotected sex, I would too, because they’re both the most idiotic thing you can do. But it does make me realize how much of a drone I am.

Would that define me in the future? Would I be another faceless office worker? No I shudder to think that. Even though I was confused as to what I really want to do for a career, I was pretty damn sure I wanted to work for myself. Whether that means freelance work or not – tough profession but summun’s gotta do it – I don’t know. But I love the thought of my own den, and just working away in an environment I am comfortable in. That’s why I can imagine – or would rather imagine – myself living with Dani or Carmaine or any other friend, because they wouldn’t be oppressive like my parents.

I’d hate to be a leader though. People have told me that I have leadership qualities. Probably do if I put my mind to it but honestly I am too lazy a person (and frankly, too indifferent to other people) to be a good leader. So no. In a tough spot, I may be able to be relied on to think up ways to salvation/safety/freedom/whatever, but otherwise, no.

Hmm, I was going to include some funny links, which was why the title was 2 irrelevant things but I just thought of another point I want to put out there.

I wrote that in a tough spot I can be relied on, but I meant in things like a large group, say like in Lost how people got…ahem…lost. I can probably keep a level head in those situations. But I am going to be talking about something else.

I want to think that I matter to someone. Not like “you matter, you’re my friend” kind of thing. But that I really matter. That someone just can’t live without me, and there is no substitute for me. Even if the feeling is temporary, I want it. I guess maybe that’s why I want a partner so much. Because they would totally rely on me to be there, just like And- and Dani. I was reading his comments to her on her blog, and I want someone to rely on me and need me the same way Dani needs him.

But okay “melo” moment over.

Here are the fun stuff.

On Tuesday I went to VET but did abso-freakin’-lutely nothing. That’s why I blogged, you know. So I went on Funny Junk and I found the following pictures:

http://funnyjunk.com/funny_pictures/7185/Bear+Warning/ (long read but worth it)

But, also I want to show you this really cool human snake thing, and it was done with stop motion animation, and for the Yr 12 video I seriously want to do something like that:

And finally, Vanilla Sky’s cover of Umbrella by Rhianna, which is just fantastic, and the video is not bad either (some draggy parts but otherwise a good laugh):

That’s all.

De Fluffe, Out.

P.S. I still love You more than ever.

So I says to him I says…

I am sitting in my Eng Lang class, and And- did’t show up, so we’re just sitting here with a sub who won’t let us leave. Yet.

Carmaine and Eunice are in the next classroom, in English. It’s such a lazy and bright day.

I hate that summer is creeping up. I hate the warm weather. Mostly I hate sweating. And I do a LOT of that.

Yesterday on the train we started discussing New Year’s. Carmaine will be on a cruise from 18th of Dec to just before New Year’s, so she’ll be away for Christmas (unfortunately) but she’ll be back for 2009. I really don’t want to have to spend another NYE with my parents pushing me to go to bed, and then finally sitting there in the most unenthusiastic countdown you can imagine, and then going to bed after a few minutes of the fireworks.

I want to be in the city, or atΒ a party, or somewhere where everyone else is excited! And then we count down from 10, and it feels like we’ve achieved something when New Year’s comes.

While it goes without saying that my parents most likely wouldn’t let me sleep over at anyone’s place NYE (original rule PLUS the whole “spend time with your family” crap they spine every year) I stll think it would be pretty dandy to count down to the new year with BRuCE. While Bee and I were pretty interested in booking a hotel room for that one night, and then going to the city for the big countdown, Carmaine was a bit more iffy, saying that the city is full of drunks and idiots on that night. Fair enough, but it’s the spirit. But anyway, it would be really expensive so for now we’re just dreamin’.

Speaking of the family crap I was talking about…

Sometimes I wish I can just shut myself up, or go back a few seconds and literally CLAMP MY MOUTH SHUT because sometimes I say the most insensitive things. I was just saying how I can’t stand another NY with my parents, Bee said quietly, “well I don’t think I will do anything with you guys on NYE because I want to spend it with my dad.” And that moment I wish I can just cut my own tongue out because I was just idiotic. Or when I complain about my mom to April, I think aboutit afterwards and honestly I am an ASSHOLE.

Happier topic…

Today I had a double free and I forgot to bring my DS so while in the first period I did Japanese homework (read: copied it off April) I didn’t have ANYTHING to do 2nd period. It was quite sad. Without my DS, who am I?

April was quite gleeful at my downfall.

Carmaine gave me a really really really tight hug today; I think I have bruising on my ribs. But but, of course as always it was well worth it.

Carmaine and I asked Bee what the Cold War was. For ages Bee thought we were joking, but, honestly, neither of us knew what the Cold War is. Apparently, it was Russia v USA in nuclear or something war, and it was “cold” because neither party were near each other.

I might write a bit more later when I get home. School blocks funnyjunk.com so I will post up some funny pictures when I can get to them. Besides, there’s a whole train ride during which something can happen that’ll make me wanna write about.

As a final note: Today I didn’t see Dani at all. Thursdays she has a double free at the end of the day so usually she goes home, and in the morning I didn’t see her. It doesn’t mean she’s not here but the possibilty of that is quite likely as well.

On the formal night (for everyone else. Haha rumor has it that we are the formal-boycott group) Sonam, April, Ti-, Vania and apparently 2 others are NOT going, and we’re seeing Persepolis or Tropical Thunder, and then eating at Achelya’s. I might find their restaurant site, but the point is April works at Achelya’s (unfortunately, that very night, so only other of us are eating) and we want to meet Kitchen Boy (read her blog).

De Fluffe, Out.

P.S. I love You, from “Ley” apparently. I wrote “Lex” in a note for Carmaine but didn’t cross the “x” properly and it read Ley.


Well I knew at some point that I wouldn’t have much to write about. And today was that day.

It was a short day at school and we started classes at 9:30. I finished at 1:30. So, there wasn’t much opening for anything to happen.

I found out today that I am seriously screwed for the upcoming Japanese SAC, and that if I don’t start on my Legal soon I will be fucked for that too. On Saturday I am going out, so I won’t get time. And Sunday neither. So I have decided that before then I will get a huge crack into the work.

Mr G gave me season 2 of Smallville today so I am watching that now. So much for the crack.

I just watched this scene will Chloe tested Clark to see if he really cared about her and well he failed epically, and he “pulled the friends card”. I don’t know…relationships do complicate a lot of things. I mean, after a big misunderstanding, how could you return to being friends? Can you stay friends with an ex?

My guesses and experience says no but Chloe and Clark remained good friends. That took an enormous amount of work on Chloe’s behalf I bet.

Am I good enough a friend to be willing to put all that effort into keeping a friend? I think so. I think I will be if the need arises.

So that’s all for today. I have decided that I will be that ultimate Chloe friend, who would do ANYTHING to keep that one precious friend.

Well, not that I decided it out of the blue, but writing it makes it all that much official.

Speaking of official…

Dani referred to me as Alex in a previous comment, so I will explain it, and thus making it official.

After graduation I have decided to get people to call me “Alex”. Like, a fresh start, ya see. Some have said that it’s a stupid thing to do, that Ruy is who I am. But I am not changing the person I am, only what people call me. In time, Alex will embody what people now know as Ruyi. Is that so bad?

I am really appreciative of the people who have decided to call me Alex. Because they love me for however I am called and appear, for what I am inside.

With that note,

De Fluffe, Out.

/edit: it just occurred to me that I’ve mentioned the name change before. Sorry.


That was just a way to title the damn thing.

I took off Theresa and Sonam because Sonam says she probably won’t write in her blog, and Theresa didn’t ever.

I actually had that conversation today with Va- about what I wrote last night, about how I will talk about not needing a real conversation etc, and we laughed when we realized I had anticipated most of the conversation.

I had a really fun conversation with An- today in VisCom in Chinese, and it was quite a personal and secret thing and it occurred us that Vi- speaks Chinese so I had to ask her if she knew what we were talking about. I’m on purposely not saying what we talked about because it will remain secret. It was quite funny though. Awkward at moments.

Car- made a blog. It is at “Arrow In Your Throat” under my blogroll. I guess it means I can refer to her by her full name.

Okay, I am going to make a dedication to someone:

Thank you for being there today. Even though I pushed you away, you kept being there, and being very subtle about it too! Thank you for your awesome hugs and your genuine love. I didn’t talk to you but I know if and when I do wish you you will be there.

I hope that your problem works out even though I don’t think it will be too big of a problem.

I love you very much. Always WILL! You are the anchor… I am the wings…etc etc hehe

Alright I won’t write too much today. We have ANOTHER SAC starting soon, and this one is more tedious than hard.

I didn’t have the best day today, but it got alright. I owe it to you.

Oh, and Dani and Eunice got new shoes. They’re both heels, far as I can tell. Dani wore hers the moment she got them, and she was going to Mel’s place so she was in casual. And there was a small slope on the front doorstep of DFO and I said to her “I don’t talk to plodders” since she was plodding in her heels, and she had to hurry to catch up with me down the slope. WHAT A SIGHT! It was utterly hilarious.

And Eunice looks good in hers too. The heels gave her legs a very..erm..sensuous curve. Over the line? But seriously. Very very awesome. If you get a blog, post the pictures (as well as your dress) and if you don’t, may I post them?

Tar- wants me to mention him. He is sitting next to me at VET. He helps me a lot. Hi Tar-. Sorry censored your name though.

De Fluffe, Out.